On my drive to work this morning I was thinking about really knowing people, or for that matter, really knowing myself. Probably a result of too much Face*Book and seeing people's lives in clips of perfection. It brought a memory to mind from a long time ago...
I was a curious and exploring girl of about 11. One afternoon I climbed the ladder into our attic. It was a mystical place where you had to consider every step. I had been there before, but my curiosity wasn't strong enough to battle spider webs and dusty breaths, so in the past I escaped as quickly as I'd arrived. This time was different, especially after I'd spotted the trunk. It was wooden, covered in embossed silvery tin and it was very old. The lid creaked as I unhinged the latch and carefully lifted the lid. No amount of dragging would take me away this time. Inside was another world, one I did not know existed;one before me, but I quickly discovered that my parents had been there before. There were old dimly colored photographs, a stack of white scalloped-edge wedding napkins imprinted with a date in gold lettering, a shiny silver cigarette lighter and a stack of opened letters neatly stacked and tied with a satin purple ribbon. Some items were curious like the lighter,my dad had never been a smoker, and the date on the napkins wasn't my parents wedding anniversary. Hmmm. After I placed everything safely back in it's place in the trunk I gingerly stepped back down the ladder. I had a new mission: to find out who's trunk was in our attic! Of course, this meant admitting to my mama that I had been in the attic "snooping", but surely she wouldn't mind my discovery of this treasure. I went to her and explained all my magnificent finds, first the lighter, to whom did it belong? She shared with me that while my daddy was in Vietnam he had started smoking and that the lighter was my daddy's from back then, but that he quit "cold turkey" when they met, because he knew my mama didn't like that habit. Well then what about those fancy napkins, with the peculiar date? That's when my mama told me that she and daddy had planned a huge gala of a wedding, complete with setting a date and buying the imprinted napkins. Then my daddy, who had recently gotten home from Vietnam, found a job out of state. This meant my mama and daddy would be apart for a while until the wedding and they couldn't stand that thought, so they just got married. No fancy wedding, no big cake, no need for all those napkins. That explains those people I don't know in the picture with you and daddy and a preacher with a Bible. What about those letters tied with purple ribbon? They were all the correspondence between my mama and daddy from the first day they met until they married. I found out the trunk and all it's contents were indeed ours, including the dried carnation corsage and the college prom picture of my mama with some other guy.
Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
and see if [there be any] wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalm 139:23-24